I'm Not Regret...

...anything if it's about her.

Yes. I don't because, I know, I have tried my very best...

...to please her even sometimes it hurt me deep down inside.
...to always lend her a hand if she needs one, although I seek for one too.
...to never say no on whatever she wanted which I wanted to say no but I just couldn't.

I never ever left her whenever she needed me.

She's not a friend, to be exact, she was more like my younger sister. I care about her so much. But that doesn't meant I'm interested in her personal life. Until she dragged me into it, hence, like it or not, it has became my personal life too. I don't talk bad about her but I talk how bad she has endured her life. I was pity on her.

There are certain terms which I wish her could understands. I never wanted to harm her or make her life bad. Truth is - I want to see her kept on smiling as much I wanted her to be happy.

But, that's the big mistake I did. It was my fault - I cared about her too much. I always provided her fluffy bed when she fell. But, not on that one sweet day. And, it was the time, she started to go against me.

Things has been pretty worst with me and her later that time.

And this evening, she told me how much she hates me after that day. Sadly, I don't feel anything. My heart already empty. I had enough of hurts. The friendship seems so cheap - no appreciation at all.

I believe in any relationship, there should be give and take even for a 10 years of friendship. With her, I always be the giver. Always. And what did I took was only hurts on whatever she did. I think I was done with this. It was her decision, and I just followed on whatever she wish for the sake of her happiness.

She never stood up for me when her friends say bad things about me, and I don't think I should stood back for this relationship - everything is all about her. But, if someday, she is coming back to me, I would be so glad to have her again, as my friend.

I have no grudge against her. I'm all clear. Everything I did for her was deeply from my bottom heart cause I care and love her. If all the helps before were not enough for her, I wish she will forgive me. I was a bad friend, just like she said. I'll never hate her or throw her from my life. That's my promise.

I'm stand on this - everything happened, happened for reasons. And life's a cycle. If I was wrong, I'll have the punishments sooner or later. Allah itu Maha Adil Maha Kaya.

Hope she will be okay, and happy always.

I'm just a human being. Neither perfect nor fallible.

Thank you for the wonderful 10 years.

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AZIE

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